5 days and counting

Good afternoon,

Well this morning I attended my pre-operation appointment. With only 5 days until my hip replacement op (this Saturday) today was the proper countdown starting.

I had a ECG, blood and urine tests, MRSA tests, chats with the nurses of what will happen, physiotherapy, occupational health professional and it felt like anyone else who had a part in Saturdays operation and recovery thereafter.

I have to say I was dreading this morning but the nurses were very nice and it went very well. However, what this morning did confirm is what has been building up in my now for the past 12 weeks since I was first told about this operation. How massive it feels, how much of my independence I have to give up (granted just for the short time) but more than feels comfortable.

I have as you probably have guessed tried as best as i can to prepare for almost every eventuality although the one thing I can't really prepare for but seems to be the thing I am struggling with the most is the lack of independence, that combined with the harsh reality that my vanity is going to take a major bashing for the next 9 weeks. And I agree its not really that long, however, its long enough.

So I will post again before saturday at which point I am sure my anxiety will be at it's peak. I must keep repeating to myself "this is for a good purpose, the pain will be gone"